On another note, I haven’t been hungry the past few days.
I have to force myself to eat so that I don’t stop eating, because when I stop eating it’s hard to start again.
I’ve just had this mad craving for all sorts of Hershey’s Kisses and so I’ve probably been gaining fat anyways but all I really eat is rice and tofu or grilled egg and cheese + veggie sandwiches. But we’re out of bread so rice and tofu and rice and tofu really. And kisses. My dad bought three bags today because he ate the rest of my peppermint kisses while I was sleeping.
You cannot understand just how happy I am at this very moment—how happy I have been for the past hour or two.
My next few weeks are looking fantastic, and nothing is bringing me down.
I CAN FINALLY BREATHE
WELL NOT REALLY
BUT NOW IT’S AN “I’M SO EXCITED” KIND OF THING
I GUESS IT ALWAYS WAS
BUT IT’S A BETTER SORT OF EXCITEMENT
I AM DYING
THIS IS GREAT
Today was a great day because I enjoy taking up any reason to go full out hair and makeup and I love being on stage and dancing makes me happy and my eyes hurt because these lashes are weird and the wings are confusing and I’m not happy with how I performed in Wednesday Advanced number BUT EVERYTHING CAN BE FIXED BY TOMORROW and that’s what matters.
Tomorrow I have to get up and do it all again BUT FOR REAL but it will be great.
This is how you shed the Disney image.
This looks really good.
The entire time I was trying to figure out which Disney girl she was.
I didn’t recognize her until I read her name across the screen.
Tech rehearsals today got me super excited for concert even though the place is small and really different like I don’t know I’M EXCITED TO PERFORM and I’m so glad I started taking Wednesday 7:00 class because I always wanted to but I was always scared to because it’s just completely different but I’ve really enjoyed it and I don’t know I feel like this concert will be great because I have just a manageable amount of stress right now like just enough to keep me on my toes I guess so it’s not boring but I’m not about to kill myself because I’m so stressed out and yup I’m just really excited for dress rehearsals tomorrow and then IT’S CONCERT ALREADY and then I don’t know if I’m going to ACA midseason tryouts on Sunday but maybe and then I’ll probably work all next week and then HoW vs Livewire is already that next weekend and then it’s Christmas and then New Years and then Gilly Hicks will be closed by the end of the next week and then I don’t know where my life is going from there but the rest of 2013 will be fabulous.
Jacque just texted me saying she didn’t know I’m not working with them anymore. She said that today everyone was like “Where’s Celina?” I didn’t really tell anyone that I was resigning except for Joe and Tony, and Mina because she’s who I turned in my notice to. All of the managers ended up knowing of course and I talked to all of them about it except for Menchie actually I’m not sure if Menchie even knew….but on my last day Jordan was like “If you ever want to come back, you’re welcome because I consider you part of my family already.” then he asked me how old I was and said I was still a baby because he was going to invite me to Mai Tai’s omg. Kristie found out because she follows me on Twitter, and then everyone who was downstairs cash wrap on Black Friday found out because we were talking about it. June and Lance knew because they were there when Eric was talking to me about it. But I guess most people didn’t realize I was leaving.
She said “Even Shar misses you!” I miss Shar! She took a picture of a cat hanger today and tagged me in it because she always saved everything cat-related we’d get and put it on the side for me. Ugh. It’s been less than a week since my last day and I miss everyone so much already.
Trying to contain myself as much as possible on the car ride home when I see that House of Wax vs Livewire date has been changed to DATES aka the ENTIRE WEEKEND even though there’s still no tickets/venue/headliner/ANY INFORMATION AT ALL but I promised Joe I’d go already because it WAS on his birthday but I guess now it’s over his birthday weekend so I’m part real excited and part real angry and part real stressed out because what the fuck is going on.